Saturday, August 9, 2014

Eyes Like Me

Staring at an image of your face,
My brother was born in first place.
Looking at the image of me,
It is my twin brother I see.

Eyes with the same shape as mine,
My brother is the only link to a time.
Mistakes we both have made,
Built up hate and anger replaces the pain.

A bond broken many years ago,
Now, it is hard to let our love show.
Getting past the way we feel,
Is this the only way our bond can heal?

Help me try to turn the page,
Let us start acting our age.
Adults with responsibilities of our own,
I need my friend, I lost for so long!

©Crystal S. Kauffman, 2001

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PS: This poem can be found in my poetry collection titled, "Rhymes of the Heart". 

Missing You Grandpa Amon

Grandpa Ray L. Amon

Grandpa’s Sweetheart

As a young girl, I met my Grandpa on my dad’s side of the family. For those of you who don’t know Ray C. Amon adopted me and my two brothers, as his legal children when he signed our birth certificates. So, legally he is our father and I reconnected with him about ten or more years ago. During that time, I always asked about my grandparents and I learned a few months back that my Grandpa Ray L. Amon had cancer.

As I first talked to him recently, I began to remember his voice from when I was a young girl and we were living with my dad and mom in Jacksonville, FL. Anyway, I remembered that he came to visit us and I vaguely remember what he looked like then. However, I remembered his voice when he spoke on the phone. He always called me “Grandpa’s Sweetheart”, which he called me again when I spoke to him recently on the phone.

When he became sick, I got sad because I wanted to see him before he passed away. Unfortunately, I was unable to visit him and he went to be with the Lord, but I know he will be watching over me. I hope he gets to meet my other family members and loved one that have already went to rest in the Lord. When I spoke with him, his voice sounded excited and he said, “Hello sweetheart!”  I haven't heard his voice or him say this to me, him since I was a very young girl.

It felt so good to reconnect with him, but I wish I could have seen him and hugged him before he passed away. However, during the conversation we had; he said that, "He was proud of me and he would see me on the other side.” I knew he loved me throughout the years we were apart and I knew he missed me as well. I just wanted to let him know that I love him and will miss his voice so much, but I am glad he is with the Lord.

Thanks to my dad for letting my grandpa and I reconnect with each other, because it meant a lot to me to hear his voice again. I love you and I am sorry for your loss as well. Thank you to my sister Melba for the picture and I am sorry for yours and Amanda's loss of a sweet man. 

Friday, August 8, 2014

Red Hot Weekend Deal from Author Carol Culver Rzadkiewicz

Beat the heat by staying inside in the A/C and reading a suspense filled thrillers, which will leave you hanging on the edge of your seat. The mysteries will leave you waiting the characters to find out what is happening and how they can overcome the situation that they find themselves in. Get ready to own a copy of Indie author Carol Culver Rzadkiewicz’s  book “Dark Woods Trilogy” which is actually three books in one novel.

The first is The Dark Woods Trilogy, which is slated for a "Kindle Countdown Deal" that begins August 9 at 8:00 a.m. (Pacific Standard Time) and runs through August 13, 8:00 a.m. (PST). The book will be listed for 99-cents on the 9th, goes to $1.99 at 8:00 a.m. on the 10th, to 2.99 on the 11th, to 3.99 on the 12th, and back to the full price of 4.99 at 8:00 a.m. on the 13th.

Author Snippet 

There’s something terrible in the woods behind the bucolic farm in the North Georgia Mountains. No one knows what it is, but each time the farm changes ownership, tragedy ensues. A local hunter is mauled beyond recognition. A young wife slowly descends into madness. A trained athlete dies a horrifying death. Now the farm has once again changed hands, and Sheriff Randal Hayes, with the help of big-game hunter Byron Wilkes, is determined to find—and to kill—the thing in the woods before it can destroy the new owner and his family. But how do you find something as elusive as the wind? How do you stop the unstoppable?

"The Dark Woods Trilogy" includes

"The Dark Woods" (a novelette), “The Runner” (a story), and "Master of Fright" (a novelette).

Each tale is sold separately on Amazon Books, but they have been combined in this volume so readers can enjoy the “whole story” at one time and for one low price.

Bonus Free Short Story to Introduce You to the Series, “Dark Woods Trilogy”
The second deal is for "The Runner," which is a short story that normally sells for 99-cents. It will be entirely free for three days. The promotion runs from August 9th beginning at12:00 a.m. through August 11, ending at 11:59 p.m. The Runner is part of the “Dark Woods Trilogy”, so be sure to get the entire story while this red hot deal last.  If you enjoy a good mystery, then take a moment to read this fantastic series.

Author Snippet

Frank Paxton is a runner. In fact, Frank is obsessed with running. So even though he's late returning home from work in Atlanta to the North Georgia farm where he and his family have recently moved, and the sun is beginning to set behind the mountains, Frank is determined to go for his usual run. And Frank wants to run in the woods. Ignoring his wife's qualms about his being alone in the rugged forestland with nighttime rapidly approaching, he heads into the woods, following the winding trails that crisscross the mountainous terrain. What Frank Paxton has no way of knowing is that he will soon be running for his life.

Below are the links:

The Dark Woods Trilogy:

The Dark Woods Trilogy: Three Tales of Terror - Kindle edition by Carol Culver Rzadkiewicz. Mystery, Thriller & Suspense Kindle eBooks @

"The Runner":

The Runner - Kindle edition by Carol Culver Rzadkiewicz. Mystery, Thriller & Suspense Kindle eBooks @

Sunday, August 3, 2014

New Author to Check Out...Author Divine Ortiz

Author Divine Ortiz is a 46 year old Puerto Rican originally from The Bronx, NY. He spent most of his life as a member of the Five Percent Nation, and a third of his life in and out of state and federal penitentiaries. It was during his last prison term in a Federal Penitentiary that he decided that it would indeed be his last prison bid, and he picked up a pen. 

Five and a half years and 15 novels later, Divine emerged from the federal prison system with a story to tell. After a couple of not so great experiences with publishers, Divine has chosen to take control of the direction his books and career would go. He created ZitrO Publications. 

With 12 books published, two authors signed to ZitrO, and no end in sight, ZitrO Publications is forging its was into the literary world. Urban Fiction and the literary world has a new face. One that threatens to be around for a long time to come. Visit the ZitrO Publications webpage to see all that they have in store for the readers.

Friday, August 1, 2014

Objects Are Closer Than They Appear

Written by, Carol Culver Rzadkiewicz 

Mrs. Carol has done it again. What a wonderful yet exciting story that will keep you turning the pages, while wondering what is going to happen next. Without giving away any spoiler's, Mrs. Carol's book is full of mystery and surprises along the way. Personally, it felt as if i was on a thrill ride , yet hanging on to the edge of my seat wondering what each character's were going to do next. I loved reading this book and so will you, especially if you like suspense and mysteries.

The book is available by Kindle or as a printed version

Snippet by Author:

Tammi Jean Cook is sixteen. She is also psychic. So when Tammi Jean hitches a ride from a long-haul trucker named Elvis P. Boone, she knows that when she reaches California she’s going to find her daddy . . . even though everyone claims he’s dead.

As they travel from the kudzu-choked fields of Alabama to the scenic hills of California, Tammi Jean and Elvis become friends as the miles click by on the Kenworth’s odometer. They also encounter people like a young woman fleeing for her life; an old Cherokee woman, who warns Tammi Jean of the risks in knowing anyone’s destiny; and a man with frightening plans for one innocent child’s future.

There’s also the Man-in-Black. Another long-haul trucker, he too is headed for California; and along the way he challenges Tammi Jean to explore the darker side of being psychic.

Ratha: The Magic Within (The Guardian Archives Series)

Ratha is a companion to Keltor.
Ratha: The Magic Within is a companion novelette to Keltor. This new book in the Guardian Series is due out real soon. 
Author Jennifer sage offered to allow member's of her newsletter's to read Ratha's story. I could not put this story down. I waited for the new email's and greedily read each portion like she was spoon feeding my addiction to the world's and character's that she has created in this magical realm. You will fall in love with this book and the book Keltor, which is the first of the Guardian Archive series.
Check it out for yourself. Keltor's e-book is now .99 cent and her website is
Feel free to look around and check out her other books. Jennifer is a top best seller author in my heart and mind. She build's worlds that will amaze you, yet allow you to build the world in your imagination as well. Oh..She is currently writing the third book in this series...Dante!
However their is more to come is this magical yet mystical series. Ratha will be out soon, but you must read Keltor first. The book is a steal at 99 cents!

Here is a Snippet for her website about Ratha: The Magic Within

The Guardian Archives Novellete

What began as a simple undertaking of a companion novel to “Keltor-The Guardian Archives” has turned into an epic adventure.
This work is a companion novel to “Keltor-The Guardian Archives” and will be considered book 1.5 in this series even though it’s nearly a full length novel.
In Keltor, we know very little about the powerful sorceress named Ratha of Westmeath. She is a 1200 year old mortal who just so happens to be one of the most powerful sorceresses to ever walk the earth and her part in Keltor is so small but her connection to the main characters is so large. We have no idea where she was 1200 years ago or what brought her to the cave in Ireland where we meet her for the first and only time in Keltor.
Who was Logan’s father? How did Ratha of Westmeath stay alive for so long in her mortal shell and why was she concealed from the Guardians? What was her path and who was the lover that she remained faithful to through all of the centuries? Who was RATHA? We find out all of this as well as where we are heading in Dante. This is an erotic tale of love that defied the worlds and universal laws in general. Don’t miss this journey packed with sizzling heat and revelations of epic proportions.
It’s one hell of a ride into the Immortal World.
50K words
Releasing July 31st 2014 worldwide
See the Book trailer here: Ratha-The Magic Within Trailer

Monday, July 28, 2014

Dark Woods Trilogy: Three Tales of Terror...By, Carol Culver Rzadkiewicz

Are you looking for a good mystery book to read? Look no further than this frightening set of three novelettes, which have been combined to save you money. You can purchase a printed copy or buy the Kindle version. She also has other books that you will love, if you are an avid reader like me. I thoroughly enjoyed reading these books and I know you will too. Here is the Author's own description of these three mysterious books.

The Books: The Dark Woods Trilogy includes The Dark Woods (a novelette), "The Runner" (a story), and Master of Fright (a novelette). While each tale is also sold separately, they have been combined in this volume with minor revisions from the originals.

Description: There's something terrible in the woods behind the bucolic farm in the North Georgia Mountains. No one knows what it is, but each time the farm changes ownership, tragedy ensues. A local hunter is mauled beyond recognition. A young wife slowly descends into madness. A trained athlete dies a horrifying death. Now the farm has once again changed hands, and Sheriff Randal Hayes, with the help of big-game hunter Byron Wilkes, is determined to find--and to kill--the thing in the woods before it can destroy the new owner and his family. But how do you find something as elusive as the wind? How do you stop the unstoppable? 

Purchase the Trilogy or  Meet her on Facebook

Friday, July 25, 2014

Immortal Dreams: By, Jennifer Sage

Isabel has had some very unusual experiences when it comes to men. In fact, they typically tend to steer completely clear of her. One lousy tornado and a few storms and she is dubbed ‘lighting girl’ by all. However, on the eve of her 22nd birthday things change literally, overnight.
When Isabel wakes up in a dream with a man not fit for human consumption she can’t believe it. And upon waking things go even more haywire. Never could she have imagined the world that she sees once the ‘blinders’ are off. Abandoned by the very person who sent these gifts to her to see the world for what it is, she is naturally skeptical of it all.
Her men problems before were laughable. Enter two of the most gorgeous creatures she had ever laid eyes upon. Add a curse and a requirement to pick one in the next 9 days. Make that nights, since she can only reach them in her dreams.
Oh, and it just so happens if she picks the wrong one then the veil between all the magical realms could be destroyed and create ultimate chaos and death. Both men want to seduce her and make her his, but only one will lead to restoring the realms, and her heart.
So heavy the burden, so great the stakes. Will she even survive the war that has already begun to rage between the worlds before her choice is made? There are the waking hours too, that are contending for her fate. And very little help is on her side….
**DISCLAIMER: This book is not intended for persons under the age 18 due to graphic violence, sex and language.**
PS: As a reader, I found this book captivating and well written. I feel in love with the characters immediately and began wanting to know what would happen to these characters I fell in love with. I loved how the book ended as well. I don’t want to spoil a good read, so I highly recommend reading this book!

Monday, July 21, 2014

The Most Marketable Skills in Today’s Ever-Changing Job Market

As a college graduate, you may find it difficult to find a job after your graduation. However, don’t be dismayed, because there are many ways you can showcase your talents and skills that you have learned in your college courses. Becoming versatile in your field of study is the most important skill for you to have, especially once you begin your endless array of job interviews. Be sure to sell yourself to each company that you come in contact with, but don’t over exaggerate your talents and skills.

First, you must be willing to change or shift your areas of interest, if you are unable to find a job in your main area of interest. For example, maybe you are a business graduate, but you may not be able to find a job in your field of study. Second, do your homework and find other areas of interest in the business field, like helping small businesses succeed or becoming a business consultant. Next, change your resume to reflect the skills that you have to offer a future employer.

Take the time to evaluate every job in your field of interest, so you can begin narrowing your skill set. This will help you become more appealing to a potential employer, but during your interview be willing to admit things that you may not know. For example, the potential employer may need someone who knows a certain program that you have never used. After the interview is over, look for classes that you can take and learn this new skill.

Now, you will be more appealing to the next potential employer that you come in contact with. Don’t give up! No matter how many rejections you receive, instead learn something that you can take away from each interview. Once you return home, analyze the interview in your mind and write down things that you think you may have done wrong. For example, talking to fast or not selling yourself correctly, because this can hurt your chances of landing the job that you have applied for.

Before your next interview, you will know what areas you will to work on and what areas you are strong in. This will make you a better candidate for the job that you are applying for, but if the employer recommends another job with less pay. Don’t be too quick to turn the other assignment down, since you can show them how valuable you are and you may receive a promotion. Sometimes, you have to start at the bottom and work your way up; however don’t forget to continue to remain versatile.

©2014, Crystal S. Kauffman

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Sunday, June 15, 2014

Another Must Read: Mustang Summer: A Novel

Another awesome book from Carol Culver Rzadkiewicz 

I just finished reading this novel and I highly recommend it to my fans and avid readers like me. This novel is one you cannot sit down, once you have begun reading it. Great Job Mrs. Carol!

To Purchase Mustang Summer 

Here is a summary from the author herself:

After three failed marriages, Ramona Raven is determined never to fall in love again and to find redemption from a lifetime of allowing men to control her destiny. So, in keeping with her Cherokee beliefs, when she dreams of a wild gray stallion, Ramona interprets the dream as a message from the Country of the Spirits. The horse is the key to her salvation. She must find the animal and bring him back to Georgia, the land that contains "the scenes of her childhood and the graves of her fathers." Yet, in order to find the horse, Ramona realizes that she is going to need help.

Help arrives in the form of Austin Cahill from Paradise, Texas. A tall, lanky cowboy, with the bluest eyes Ramona has ever seen, and former All-American Rodeo Bronc Rider, Austin is now a middle-aged drifter. Having lost his wife and child in a terrible accident, he is determined to settle down, although he's failed in the past, and to put to rest memories of the Huntsville Prison Rodeo and the crazy stallion that destroyed the only thing he had left--his ability to ride any horse breathing.

Accompanying Austin is "his daughter," Killian Russell. Deserted by her own father when she was a child, Killian has run away from an abusive, alcoholic mother, and although learning disabled, Killian is yet smarter than most people when it comes to the ways of the world, so when Austin offers her refuge, she sees it as the opportunity to escape the past and to finally have the idyllic life of which she's always dreamed of.

When Austin accepts Ramona's offer of employment, the three of them embark upon an adventure-laden journey that will take them from the rolling hills of Georgia to the sun-blasted landscape of northern Utah. Yet little do they know that this one fateful summer will change their lives forever, for in the days to come they will learn to trust, to love, and to believe in the unbelievable.

Tuesday, June 3, 2014

KELTOR : Book 1 in the Guardian Archives Series....By, Jennifer Sage

Written By, 
Jennifer Sage 
To My Fans, here is an author you must read!!18 and older only! Get this book from:
Keltor is a Guardian of the light even though he exists nearly in Shadow, haunted by his past.

His world, the world of the Guardians, is a dark reality that coexists in modern day with ours.

Behind the warm veils of our lives a war rages against the Shadow Demons and the Guardians protect as much of humanity as they can, still believing in us as a race.

There is one person alive, a Keeper, who has within her the power to tilt the scales one way or another in this war. With the ability to damn the Light or the Dark and no knowledge of how to she is supposed to do either, Liz is nearly a helpless pawn. A pawn that is about to find herself completely powerless against a force greater than she has ever known.

A Guardian who lost his heart centuries ago. A female who has never really known her own. Laws that prevent them from ever finding solace in the other. Far different laws that prevent them from turning away.
A choice must be made and it’s one that could bring the most vile of Demons back from the seven hells. The Guardians are among us…and this one is forbidden fruit.

Visit her website at

PS: My Reading fans....This is must read along with the rest of her work. You will not be able to put it down. This book is meant for 18 and older, who love Fantasy type genres..

Saturday, May 31, 2014


Pre-screening will be held at Park City Ministries on the…

June 5th, 2014 @ 3pm to 8pm  


June 7th, 2014 @ 9 am to 5pm

Park City Ministries is located at 5811 LeSabre RD. 

The Dental Van will be here on July 7-11, 2014 

Starting at 8 am. Call Dr. Wayne Rowbottom 904-554-7890



Friday, May 23, 2014

Thank You Letter From LiveStrong

This is a thank you letter from, who helps us by sending wristband s for the patients.This letter is a thank you for how we have been  are blessing new patients. Thanks to all to my donors and volunteers for making this project possible. You know who you are! Our next Giveaway is in December, so I look forward to having everyone do something small to bless the new patients who are scared.Thank you!

Wednesday, May 21, 2014

Wings of Hope Project - December 2014- Give Away

We successfully completed our Wings of Hope Project for March 27, 2014 give away, which consisted of 12 gift bags full of items that will be given to new patients at Shands Infusion Center for Women. We made up a nurses bag and threw some extra stuff in it, so the nurses can give them away to new patients. However, we need your help to continue the project and help us get ready for our next give away in December 2014. Let's try to get more than 12 gift bags for our next planned visit.

We do as two times in year: April and December. This way, we can reach as many patients as we can during each year. We pick out local cancer clinics or nursing homes to bless with our donated gifts. Please take a moment to look around your house and see if you may have some of the items that we need, in order to make this project a success. Each time we visit them, the nurses are happy to see us because they do not have items give out to the patients at this time due to hospital rules.

Ask your church, school, groups, clubs, or organizations to get involved and help us to continue to bless many patients with these gifts of love. For December’s give away, we will need at least 50 gift bags for men and women. We will also need 1 large gift bag for the nurses, so feel free to donate what you can.

Items we will need:

Small gifts
Gifts bags- medium 30
Thinking of you cards
Blankets- fleece throw
Bookmarks- homemade or bought
Non profits- organizations wristbands- prostate, cervical, ovarian
Anything that will cheer up a patient, men and women.
Every new patient will get a bag until they run out.
No candy!!!

Together we can make a difference!

Send items to:
Laugh at Cancer Support Community
c/o Crystal s. Kauffman
7192 Park City Dr.
Jacksonville, Florida, 32244


If you send a donation of any kind.

Come on lets make a patient feel they are cared about and loved.

Donate Books for Cancer Patients

Do you have different books lying around your house, which are in good condition that you would like to give away? Currently, the Laugh at Cancer Support Community is collecting gently used books for our gift bags that we will be giving out in December 2014. These books will be given to men and women, so we ask that you send all types of books like action-adventure or romance. Due to the clinic we are working with requests, no self-help books or books about fighting cancer.

These books are meant to get the readers mind off of the treatment, while allowing their imagination to run wild. We will also need all kind of bookmarks with positive quotes, whether store bought or handmade. Additionally, we would like for our gift bags to have Bibles in them for each patient and some witnessing booklets. Maybe, a church or company can help us make this happen, but for now it is in God’s hands.

I pray that we can cheer up some patients this upcoming Christmas season. Just a quick reminder, that the yearly “Wings of Hope Project” has been changed, from three times a year to two times a year. We will have a giveaway around April 15th and December 15th of each year, because this makes it easier to collect the gift donations we need, in order to make our “New Patient Packages”. We will be working on collecting 50 bags that will be given to men and women, who have been newly diagnosed.

This way they know that there is a network of people out here that cares about what they are going through. If you can help us gather the items we need, please contact me by email ( and I will give you the information you need like an address and phone number. Thank you for taking the time to think of others, who are fighting for their livesand remember to say a prayer for them.

Monday, May 19, 2014

A Family’s Struggle with Hoarding (Chapter 7)

Today, Dolly brought home new stuff from the neighbors like: cabinets, trinkets, and lots of Christmas stuff. Mandy washed the laundry and straightened up her half of the house, as she always does during the day. The kitchen was piled with boxes and Dolly’s room was piled up with boxes too, but Mandy tried to just ignore the boxes and do what she could to straighten up the main areas of the house. However, she couldn’t put dishes away that Dolly had washed, because all the boxes were in the way.

That night, Mandy and her husband Kyle stayed up to watch over Dolly, because she was twitching and jerking involuntarily. Mandy knew immediately, something was wrong, but she had an appointment with her doctor that morning. So, Mandy and her husband tried to keep her mother in her motorized wheelchair all morning long. Suddenly, she began displaying signs of an infection or an accidental pain medicine overdose which freaked Mandy out.   

Mandy called the ambulance that usually transports her mother to the hospital and she explained what she had witnessed. The ambulance drivers decided to test for a possible drug overdose and after sticking her mother Dolly with an IV and administering a narcotic reversal agent. Dolly became alert and the ambulance drivers stated that she had accidentally taken too much pain medicine. She was transported to the nearest hospital and the doctors there discovered that she also had a urinary tract infection.

During the time that Dolly was at the hospital, a lady showed up, who was with Adult Protective Services and she requested that Mandy and her husband Kyle began cleaning out the kitchen. She also advised us that Dolly needed to clean her own room, once she was able to home from the hospital. Basically, Mandy’s husband Kyle had to get rid of the garbage and the rest was put in the storage room. Mandy could only help with the small stuff, due to her own disability from her cancer treatment 11 years ago.

Mandy decided to call her mother’s doctor and report that she was in the emergency room, plus Mandy decided to tell her this is the third accidental overdose. Dolly’s doctor was unaware of the facts, but stated she would handle it from here by lowering her dose. Additionally, she asked Mandy if she would manage her medications, once she got out of the hospital. Mandy hesitated and then she agreed to manage her medicines for her.

Since, the day Dolly came home, she has been less argumentative with Mandy and Kyle, which is an answered prayer. She is slowly cleaning at her room and that is frustrating, because it has to be done or Mandy and Kyle will have to clean it up as well. Mandy created a notebook or logbook where she writes down and accounts for every medication that she gives her mother. She also has been trying to give her mother freedom, yet prays she will see how her mistakes affect other people like: Mandy and Kyle.

(©2014, Crystal S. Kauffman)

Saturday, May 3, 2014

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Tuesday, April 29, 2014

Thursday, April 24, 2014

A Family's Struggling With Hoarding (Chapter 6)


Lately, Mandy has been made feel guilty, as if she has done everything wrong for the last five days due to  her mother’s negative attitude toward her each day. Dolly has been bringing in more stuff or junk, but refuses to go through she already has piled up in kitchen and liven room. She has bought Christmas supplies in that she bought and too many tables, both small and large! This type of behavior from Dolly has really frustrated Mandy and her husband Kyle, because Dolly just tells them to “shut up and leave her alone”, whenever they say anything about the amount of junk she brings in.

Unfortunately, now Mandy or Kyle are dealing with moving more of her stuff, in order to find certain dishes that they may need or to reach the dining room table. However, they cannot sit at the same table together: due to her stuff surrounding it, being on top of it, and being underneath it. They need a new or better stove, because it only has one burner working. Recently, Dolly gets angry or mad over the simplest things like: moving her boxes, throwing her trash away, and just generally cleaning up the kitchen.

Honestly, it is the frustrating to have limited access to dishes and other things that we may need while one of us is cooking. Just this week, she has brought home over fifty different items, which she got through Lola. Mandy’s best friend is Lola, so she has talked to Lola about not giving her any more stuff to bring home. However, Dolly goes down to Lola’s to beg for something she is going to put in yard sale, so she feels sorry for Dolly and gives in to her wants.

Nevertheless, Mandy’s best friend Lola hasn’t been around much, so Mandy has been feeling alone and stuck in a place that she doesn’t want to be. Thankfully, Lola helps Mandy get her mind off of the negative stuff and helps her focus on the positive things that she has in her life. For example, Mandy just stays in her room and tries to ignore her mother’s constant yelling by watching TV, as well as playing with her two dogs, listening to e-books, and writing.

Unfortunately, every day there is an argument over clothing, food, and anything else that Dolly feels belongs to her. So far, Mandy has pleaded with her mother to stop the yelling and constant screaming, but day after day it continues for whatever reason when Dolly gets in a nasty mood. Mandy just tries to ignore the arguing and fighting about stupid stuff, since she can get more clothes and she can get her own food.

Additionally, she feels berated and belittled by her own mother, which is hard to stomach sometimes and hard to handle mentally as well. Therefore, Mandy began seeking help through a psychiatrist and a counselor, which has helped. Especially, one she began taking mood stabilizers and anxiety medications, but her mom will always be a trigger for Mandy. She doesn’t want be disrespectful to her mother Dolly, but in many ways Mandy has became the parent and Dolly has became the spoiled child.

The role reversal has given Mandy things to think about, but what others suggest just will not work on her mother right now. She is defiant, greedy, and can be very nasty at times when she doesn’t get her way. Unfortunately, Dolly will do things behind everyone’s back and by the time we find out about it, it is usually too late to take back. 

Mandy prays that one day, she can teach her mother the right way to love somebody. Instead of what she was taught, which is to buy things for those you love as a form of showing that person love. Changes can be difficult, yet with God’s help, patience, long-suffering, and faith can change anyone.

(2014, Crystal S. Kauffman)

Monday, April 21, 2014

Manic Monday-April 21, 2014-Combating Depression

Manic Monday- Combating Depression

This is video of my best friend Laura and I discussing dealing with depression and ways to combat it, as well as other stuff. Hope you enjoy our new series of videos and my new videos that I will be uploading in near future. Sorry so long this time. Thanks for watching and subscribe to our channels. Sorry for mistake in video

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Laura Bragg (LAURA BRAGG)

Monday, March 31, 2014


This is my best friend Laura and I are discussing how we generally cope with anxiety in our lives. I apologize for strong medications I am on, because it shows in the video. 

This is our first full video together, but we plan to do more in the future. I hope you will like and subscribe to my best friend's YouTube Channel.

Additionally, I know that I must break my habit of using the words, "you know". Have blessed night!

Friday, March 28, 2014

Wings of Hope Project for March 2014

Yesterday, we gave away 12 bags for new patients at Shand’s Infusion Center For Women, plus we threw extras in the nurse’s bag. So, the nurse can make a few more bags. I am excited because we were able to bless so many patients. Come on and get involved for September’s give away.
WE Need:
small gifts
gifts bags
thinking of you cards
Non profits- organizations wristbands- prostate, cervical, ovarian
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Wednesday, March 26, 2014

A Family’s Struggle with Hoarding (Chapter 5)

Right after waking up, Mandy walked through her mother’s room and become instantly overcome with disbelief. She was irritated that her mother had most of her boxes in the center of the room, which made it harder to get around her mother and her wheelchair. "Overwhelming chaos!"

Mandy thought as she retreated back to her room. "It is way too early for this"; she began repeating to herself and she held her head in her hands.

Today, Mandy is going to let her mom go through each box, by herself and put away the things she was pulling out. Most of the day, Mandy cleaned up her side of the house and began doing everybody’s laundry. Dolly managed to get through a few of the boxes, but in the meantime she filled her bed with stuff from the boxes. Now, she is cleaning off her bed and shoving stuff back into different boxes, which drives Mandy nuts.

Before Mandy walked in her computer room, she was baffled by what her mother was doing and offered to her put things where they belong.
“Why don’t you just put your stuff where it belongs, instead of putting it back in boxes?” Mandy asked her mother.
“Don’t worry about what I’m doing!” Dolly snapped.
Mandy felt a little angry, but she felt more crushed by her mother’s sharp tongue toward her at that moment. 

She felt like she had been punched in the stomach, yet Mandy couldn’t do anything about the intense feelings that she felt. Additionally, Dolly went back to empting certain boxes; while stuffing other slam full of stuff like knickknacks, mail, magazines, pictures, and clothing. Mandy thought they were making progress in de-cluttering their lives, but everyday it just seems like there’s more clutter.

Kyle is tired of moving Dolly’s boxes of stuff to different rooms and then to different spots all over the house. He is also annoyed when having to clean off her bed every night, whenever she piles it up with heavy things that she cannot move herself. Mandy gets overwhelmed by the constant barrage of boxes, which is stacked up and the small trail to the kitchen. Sometimes, Dolly will fall asleep in her wheelchair right in the middle of the small walkway she has created.

However, Mandy and Kyle knows that Dolly is trying to go through years and years of stuff, which has been piled up in boxes year. So, they are both trying to be patient and help her as much as they can, but Dolly has to be the one to go through her stuff. This way, she won’t think one of them is throwing her stuff away and she will know where she put her things. Mandy feels blessed that her mother has already gotten rid of a lot of boxes, but there are still many more to go.

(2014, Crystal S. Kauffman)

A Family’s Struggle with Hoarding (Chapter 4)

This morning, when Mandy woke up, she found her mother passed out in her wheelchair with a large box of papers in front of her. She tried squeezing by Dolly without waking her up, but she was unable to make it around her wheelchair and the boxes that she has stacked up next to one of her dressers and medical cabinet. Mandy gently woke her up and Dolly seemed startled at first, but then she began going through the box once again. She begged her mom to lie down and get some rest, because she had been up all night going through the boxes.

Mandy went to the kitchen and noticed that there was as many boxes, as there was where she went to bed the night before. She felt pleased that her mother had taken the initiative to go through the boxes and start getting rid of things that she didn’t need. However, later on that day, Mandy found out that her mother had just consolidated the stuff into the different boxes. Finally, Mandy, asked Dolly if she could help her go through some more boxes and eliminate the need for so many boxes.

“No, I will do it myself. You will just throw my stuff away.” Dolly barked at Mandy.

“I promise that I will not throw any of your stuff away, without your permission.” Mandy replied.

Mandy knew that no matter what she does, her mother will always be a hoarder and the more she tries to organize Dolly’s life. The more resistance and negativity she receives from her mother, but Mandy is determined to somehow change circumstances that she has been dealt. Her grandparents were hoarders, just as her mother and her brother is a hoarder. Dolly is against having a yard sell or giving her stuff away to an organization that can use it to help other under families.

Currently, Dolly has three dressers full of clothing and boxes stacked about 5 foot high in some places, yet Mandy is proud that she has taken a time to finally eliminate many of the boxes that once filled up a whole room. At last count, she has about 30 more boxes to go through and then Mandy is hoping to talk her into going to her clothes. This way, she can live comfortably in the living room, instead of having the move boxes around constantly. Mandy’s mother has a lot of nice things, yet they are all stored in boxes and no one can see the beautiful pieces that she has collected over the years.

Mandy is thrilled that her mother has stayed on task and has gotten rid of many of the boxes that filled up the entire kitchen, as well as the living room. She doesn’t have that far to go, yet she still has a lot of boxes to go through still and Mandy will help her whenever she needs it. Maybe one day soon, Dolly will have her bedroom set up nicely and hopefully she will not have any more boxes full of papers are clothing. Honestly, Mandy’s mother has taken a big step in changing her life from a hoarder to someone who can show off her unique collections.

She has a long way to go still, because she needs to go through her many bags and purses, and order to find the best one for her to carry each day. Dolly also needs to gather her clothes and decide whether she wants some are not, so we can donate or sell the ones that she doesn’t want. At this point, Mandy is amazed at the progress that her mother has made, since we started this project six days ago. However, she wishes she could help her mother go through her stuff and finally get done with this daunting project.

(2014, Crystal S. Kauffman)

Tuesday, March 25, 2014

A Family’s Struggle with Hoarding (Chapter 3)

“Here do you want this?” Dolly snidely asked.  

“What is it?” Mandy answered inquisitively.

Mandy instantly knew that her mother was in a bad mood today, but she was surprised when she saw the little black box she was holding. She took the little black box that her mother had given her and she took it with her to the kitchen. She slowly opened the box and was immediately stunned when she seen the beautiful necklace.

Mandy was puzzled by this gesture of kindness, despite her ill mood she was displaying at the time that Dolly gave her the gift.  She pulled the necklace out of the black box and put it on in front of the bathroom mirror. Mandy loved the necklace but, she wasn’t sure why her mother was in such an ill mood. Mandy headed back to her room, while wading her way around Dolly endless boxes of clothing and miscellaneous papers.

As Mandy walked by she said. “Thank you!”

“You’re welcome” Dolly grumpily stated.

About thirty minutes later, Mandy came out of her room, in order to help her mother go through more boxes. However, Dolly’s had changed drastically and she was very angry, but Mandy couldn’t figure out why she was so mad. Mandy try to ignore her attitude and continue working on getting her clothes separated. 
Suddenly, Dolly starts screaming at Mandy to leave her stuff alone, so Mandy decided to go to her room and watch a movie.

Mandy was feeling cold, but she has no warm shirts and she asked her mom if she could use one of her winter shirts. Dolly got angry and began ranting and raving about how Mandy needed to get her own clothes. However, Mandy got upset because she had lots of her own clothes when she moved in with her mother. Four year now, she has begged Dolly to go through her clothes and see if any of Mandy’s clothes are packed up with her clothes.

Unfortunately, Dolly refuses to go to her clothes and swears that none of Mandy’s clothes has gotten mixed up with her. Mandy’s mom has two closets full of clothes, as well as many boxes and baskets that are filled with clothing. Some of these clothes have not been touched in years, because they don’t fit her anymore. Currently, she is trying to get another closet built, in order to hold more of her clothes that she doesn’t want to get rid of.

Mandy believes that her mother should go through her clothes and keep what fits her, while letting the other clothes go to the local Goodwill. However, Dolly will not part with her clothes and she doesn’t really like sharing them with Mandy either. Right now, Mandy feels overwhelmed by the amount of boxes that are cluttering up her mother’s room and the kitchen. She prays that her mother will seek help for her problem with hoarding and with her depression.

(2014, Crystal S. Kauffman/Fictional Short Story)